missing, inaction

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despite the flux of old blogs from my old facebook account


i realised that i haven't actually written anything in a long while.  kind of been missing in action...

you'd be forgiven for thinking i've just been sitting around with my feet up

actually, i've just retreated a little from the virtual world


i have been doing a fair bit of stuff, though...
 
gardening
my niece and i started a whole nursery of seedlings on our balcony - that deserves  blog of its own.


i've been taking a lot of photos and expanding my stash of camera bits

the other day i actually referred to myself as a 'freelance photographer' - more in jest than anything else, really, though, just mimicking what a friend had just described me as.  not quite there yet.

i've discovered new places 


made first visits


and had brilliant times learning from new friends


developing friendships is one of  the things i've had a lot of time for other the past few months.  so whether it's been in libraries


in parks


in restaurants


or even underground


i have spent more time doing things i love


with people i love


it hasn't all been sunshine and smiles, though


there've been times where i've just felt lost


and confused


where my whole life seems to just be one big mess


and everything's going too fast


other times i've just found myself so angry about different things happening - in the uk and further afield


but frustratingly, equally incompetent to make real change, so that, even as i rise up and take what little action i can, it all sometimes seems so pointless. it just feels like everything is just out of reach, like any power i have to change things has slowly faded


maybe the only way is to accept that things change - and sometimes i can affect them directly



and sometimes i can't


and all i have is the time i have


to keep believing that there will always be reason for hope



Comments

  1. Anonymous4 August 2011 at 02:24

    This is an 'I wanna hug Wasi' moment! I loved this post.

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  2. Zaufishan4 August 2011 at 21:47

    Beautiful. Your own photography?
    Masha'Allah.

    Liking you and what you do. Ramadan cream and barakallah fikum.
    Z.

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  3. Zayna Daze5 August 2011 at 01:02

    Wonderful story you've shared with us. Ramadan Mubarak big sis x

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  4. Knox5 August 2011 at 20:44

    Thanks for reading and commenting, y'all - Ramadan creams to you all! xxx
    r - i wanna hug you too - let's make it happen soon!
    z - yes, all mine :0) you know how i feel about you and what you do.
    zd - ramadan mubarak, lil sis - come round for iftar?

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