missing, inaction

-
despite the flux of old blogs from my old facebook account


i realised that i haven't actually written anything in a long while.  kind of been missing in action...

you'd be forgiven for thinking i've just been sitting around with my feet up

actually, i've just retreated a little from the virtual world


i have been doing a fair bit of stuff, though...
 
gardening
my niece and i started a whole nursery of seedlings on our balcony - that deserves  blog of its own.


i've been taking a lot of photos and expanding my stash of camera bits

the other day i actually referred to myself as a 'freelance photographer' - more in jest than anything else, really, though, just mimicking what a friend had just described me as.  not quite there yet.

i've discovered new places 


made first visits


and had brilliant times learning from new friends


developing friendships is one of  the things i've had a lot of time for other the past few months.  so whether it's been in libraries


in parks


in restaurants


or even underground


i have spent more time doing things i love


with people i love


it hasn't all been sunshine and smiles, though


there've been times where i've just felt lost


and confused


where my whole life seems to just be one big mess


and everything's going too fast


other times i've just found myself so angry about different things happening - in the uk and further afield


but frustratingly, equally incompetent to make real change, so that, even as i rise up and take what little action i can, it all sometimes seems so pointless. it just feels like everything is just out of reach, like any power i have to change things has slowly faded


maybe the only way is to accept that things change - and sometimes i can affect them directly



and sometimes i can't


and all i have is the time i have


to keep believing that there will always be reason for hope



Comments

  1. Anonymous4 August 2011 at 02:24

    This is an 'I wanna hug Wasi' moment! I loved this post.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Zaufishan4 August 2011 at 21:47

    Beautiful. Your own photography?
    Masha'Allah.

    Liking you and what you do. Ramadan cream and barakallah fikum.
    Z.

    ReplyDelete
  3. Zayna Daze5 August 2011 at 01:02

    Wonderful story you've shared with us. Ramadan Mubarak big sis x

    ReplyDelete
  4. Knox5 August 2011 at 20:44

    Thanks for reading and commenting, y'all - Ramadan creams to you all! xxx
    r - i wanna hug you too - let's make it happen soon!
    z - yes, all mine :0) you know how i feel about you and what you do.
    zd - ramadan mubarak, lil sis - come round for iftar?

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

On fear and being far from home when the fascism sets in

-
Image
Many others have already written about the tragic and brutal murder of Lee Rigby last week, the aftermath that we have witnessed, and what this signifies.  You can read some brilliantly on point blog posts as follows: @WarOnWar - The Woolwich Reaction @AssedBaig  - Woolwich and the Muslim Response @SamAmbreen  - IC A Muslim There’s also this post , brought to my attention on twitter by  @izzykoksal , on the EDL and fascism:  The above 4, between them, have probably already said a lot of what I feel.  But here goes anyway. There have been moments when I found myself shaking in reaction to events at the EDL/counter-demo this afternoon. And I’m not even in london.  Reports from those attending the antifascist march are terrifying.  Not least because of the sudden swell in support for the far-right ideologies being spouted, following a week which saw a massive outpouring of hatred and violence against muslims and those ‘appearing’ to be.   Not least
Read more

No point, just felt like writing (unedited)

-
I've had one of those days today where I've decided a whole load of things. I have a habit of doing a lot of my decision making internally, so I'll just come out with something like 'ok, so I'll be moving to Scotland next year', which tends to sound a bit random and out of the blue to those around me, but has usually been the reuslt of a long bit of internal dialogue. Anyway, the result of one of the decisions (save more) is that I plan to be in more over the next 10 months or so.  Rather than spend all that time watching youtube videos and trying to perfect my a cappella imitation of the guitar riff in Hotel California, I figured I'd take it as a time to hopefully become a bit more creative.  I'm planning to finally start teaching myself to play my Freecycle Violin with its Freecycle bow, and also play a bit more guitar, and maybe actually learn a bit more techniqe than jittery chord changes and skipping over the 'difficult' bits.  I'm hop
Read more

a few to get me started

-
i know - it's nearly 2... where does the time go... ok, so i know i should be in bed, and actually intended an early(ish) night tonight ahead of a full day tomorrow, but...well, i got to doing some stuff with my mum (statement for insurance, after some idiot hit her car with a van, and dragged off the bumper, then didn't even stop!!), so didn't have dinner til late, so sat down and got online. got minorly involved in a debate over racism - institutional - - - - - I'd written two more paragraphs, and uploaded 6 photos when the computer crashed. i now don't even remember most of what i'd written. and it took about half an hour to upload the photos anyway, so not starting that again. sorry. what started as a nice happy-despite-tiredness blog is now just a bit of a blip instead. i may attempt it again tomorrow. for now, i can't be bothered. going to bed to dream of unnecessarily violent responses to the next talk talk operative on the street who offers
Read more